And he was—in her! Nothing else counted at that
moment. But the girl did not understand that—then! For half an hour, perhaps,
she lost herself in an eloquent eulogy of America, while the Boy sat and
watched her, catching the import of but little that she said, it must be
confessed, but drinking in every detail of her expressive countenance, her
flashing, lustrous eyes, her red, impulsive lips and rounded form, and her
white, slender hands, always employed in the expression of a thought or as the
outlet for some passing emotion. He caught himself watching for the occasional
glimpses of her small white teeth between the rose of her lips. He saw in her
eyes the violet sparks of smouldering fires, kindled by the volcanic heart
sometimes throbbing and threatening so close to the surface. When the eruption
came!—
Fascinated he
watched the rise and sweep of her white arm. Every line and curve of her body
was full of suggestion of the ardent and restless and impulsive temperament
with which nature had so lavishly endowed her. She was alive with feeling—alive
to the finger-tips with the joy of life, the fullness of a deep, emotional
nature. It occurred to Paul that nature had purposely left her body so small,
albeit so beautifully rounded, that it might devote all its powers to the
building therein of a magnificent, flaming soul—that her inner nature might
always triumph. But Opal had never been especially conscious of a soul—scarcely
of a body. She had not yet found herself. Paul's emotions were in such chaotic
rebellion that the thunder of his heart-beats mingled with the pulse hammering
through his brain and made him for the first time in his life curiously deaf to
his own thoughts.
As she met
his eye, expressing more than he realized of the storm within, her own fell
with a sudden sense of apprehension. She rose and looked far out over the
restless waves with a sudden flush on her dimpled cheek, a subtle excitement in
her rapid words. "As for our men, Paul, they are only human beings, but
mighty with that strength of physique and perfect development of mind that
makes for power. They are men of dauntless purpose. They are men of pure
thoughts and lofty ideals. They know what they want and bend every ambition and
energy to its attainment. Of course I speak of the average American —the type!
The normal
American is a born fighter. Yes, that is the key-note of American supremacy! We
never give up! never! In my country, what men want, they get!" She raised
her hand in a quaint, expressive gesture, and the loose sleeve fell back,
leaving her white arm bare. He sprang to his feet, his eyes glowing. "And
in my country, what men want, they take!" he responded fiercely—almost
brutally and without a second's warning Paul threw his arms about her and
crushed her against his breast. He pressed his lips mercilessly upon her own,
holding them in a kiss that seemed to Opal would never end. "How—how dare
you!"
she gasped, when at last she escaped his grasp and
faced him in the fury of outraged girlhood.
"I —I—hate you!" "Dare?
When one loves one dares anything!" was his
husky response. "I shall have had my kiss and you can never forget that!
Never! never!" And Paul's voice grew exultant. Opal had heard of the
brutality, the barbarism of passion, but her life had flowed along conventional
channels as peacefully as a quiet river. She had longed to believe in the fury
of love—in that irresistible attraction between men and women. It appealed to
her as it naturally appeals to all women who are alive with the intensity of
life. But she had seen nothing of it. Now she looked living Passion in the face
for the first time, and was appalled—half frightened, half fascinated—by the
revelation. That kiss seemed to scorch her lips with a fire she had never
dreamed of. With the universal instinct of shamed womanhood, she pressed her
handkerchief to her lips, rubbing fiercely at the soiled spot. He divined her
thought and laughed, with a note of exultation that stirred her Southern blood.
In defiance she raised her eyes and searched his face, seeking some solution of
the mystery of her own heart's strange, rebellious throbbing. What could it
mean? Paul took another step toward her, his face softening to tenderness.
"What is it, Opal?" he breathed. "I was—trying—to understand
you."
"I don't
understand myself sometimes—certainly not to-day!"
"I thought you were a gentleman!" (I
wonder if Eve didn't say that to Adam in the garden!) "I have been
accustomed to entertain that same idea myself," he said, "but, after
all, what is it to be a gentleman? All men can be gentle when they get what
they want. That's no test of gentility. It takes circumstances outside the
normal to prove man's civilization. When his desires meet with opposition the
brute comes to the surface—that's all." Another rush of passion lighted
his eyes and sought its reflection in hers. Opal turned and fled. In the
seclusion of her stateroom Opal faced herself resolutely. A sensation of
outrage mingled with a strange sense of guilt. Her resentment seemed to blend
with something resembling a strange, fierce joy. She tried to fight it down,
but it would not be conquered. Why was he so handsome, so brilliant, this
strange foreign fellow whom she felt intuitively to be more than he claimed to
be? What was the secret of his power that even in the face of this open insult
she could not be as angry as she knew she should have been? She looked in the
mirror apprehensively. No, there was no sign of that terrible kiss. And yet she
felt as though all the world must have seen had they looked at her—felt that
she was branded forever by the burning touch of his lips!
It was not until the dinner hour on the following
day that Paul and Opal met again. One does not require an excuse for keeping to
one's stateroom during an ocean voyage—especially during the first few days—and
the girl, though in excellent health and a capital sailor, kept herself
secluded. She wanted to understand herself and to understand this stranger who
was yet no stranger. For a girl who had looked upon life as she had she felt
woefully unsophisticated. But the Boy?
He was
certainly not a man of the world, who through years of lurid experience had
learned to look upon all women as his legitimate quarry. If he had been that
sort, she told herself, she would have been on her guard instinctively from the
very first. But she knew he was too young for that—far too young—- and his eyes
were frank and clear and open, with no dark secrets behind their curtained
lids. But what was he—and who? When the day was far spent, she knew that she
was no nearer a solution than she had been at dawn, so she resolved to join the
group at table and put behind her the futile labor of self-examination. She
would not, of course, deign to show any leniency toward the offender—indeed
not! She would not vouchsafe one unnecessary word for his edification. But she
took elaborate care with her toilet, selected her most becoming gown and drove
her maid into a frenzy by her variations of taste and temper. It was truly a
very bewitching Opal who finally descended to the salon and joined the party of
four masculine incapables who had spent the day in vain search for amusement.
Paul Zalenska
rose hastily at her entrance and though she made many attempts to avoid his
gaze she was forced at last to meet it. The electric spark of understanding
flashed from eye to eye, and both thrilled in answer to its magnetic call. In
the glance that passed between them was lurking the memory of a kiss. Opal
blushed faintly. How dare he remember! Why, his very eyes echoed that
triumphant laugh she could not forget. She stole another glance at him. Perhaps
she had misjudged him—but— She turned to respond to the greeting of her father
and the other two gentlemen, and soon found herself seated at the table
opposite the Boy she had so recently vowed to shun. Well, she needn't talk to
him, that was one consolation. Yet she caught herself almost involuntarily
listening for what he would say at this or that turn of the conversation and
paying strict—though veiled—attention to his words. It was a strange dinner. No
one felt at ease. The air was charged with something that all felt too tangibly
oppressive, yet none could define, save the two—who would not. For Paul the
evening was a dismal failure. Try as he would, he could not catch Opal's eye
again, nor secure more than the most meagre replies even to his direct questions.
She was too French to be actually impolite, but she interposed between them
those barriers only a woman can raise.
She knew that
Paul was mad for a word with her; she knew that she was tormenting and
tantalizing him almost beyond endurance; she felt his impatience in every nerve
of her, with that mysterious sixth sense some women are endowed with, and she
rejoiced in her power to make him suffer. He deserved to suffer, she said.
Perhaps he'd have some idea of the proper respect due the next girl he met! These
foreigners! Mon Dieu! She'd teach him that American girls were a little
different from the kind they had in his country, where "what men want,
they take," as he had said. What kind of heathen was he?
And she
watched him surreptitiously from under her long lashes with a curious gleam of
satisfaction in her eyes. She had always known she had this power over men, but
she had never cared quite so much about using it before and had been more
annoyed than gratified by the effect her personality had had upon her masculine
world. So she smiled at the Count, she laughed with the Count and made eyes
most shamelessly at the disgusting old gallant till something in his face
warned her that she had reached a point beyond which even her audacity dared
not go. Heavens! how the old monster would devour a woman, she thought, with a
thrill of disgust. There were awful things in his face! And the Boy glared at
de Roannes with unspeakable profanity in his eyes, while the girl laughed to
herself and enjoyed it all as girls do enjoy that sort of thing. It was
delightful, this game of speaking eyes and lips.
"Oh, the
little more, and how much it is! And the little less, and what worlds
away!" But it was, as she could dimly see, a game that might prove
exceedingly dangerous to play, and the Count had spoiled it all, anyway. And a
curious flutter in her heart, as she watched the Boy take his punishment with
as good grace as possible, pled for his pardon until she finally desisted and
bade the little company good night. At her departure the men took a turn at
bridge, but none of them seemed to care much for the cards that night and the
Boy soon broke away.
He was about to withdraw to his stateroom in chagrin
when quite unexpectedly he found Opal standing by the rail, wrapped in a long
cloak. She was gazing far out toward the distant horizon, the light of strange,
puzzling thoughts in the depths of her eyes. She did not notice him until he
stood by her side, when she turned and faced him defiantly. "Opal,"
he said, "there was one poet of life and love whom we did not quote in our
little discussion to-night. Do you remember Tennyson's words, "'A man had
given all earthly bliss And all his worldly worth for this, To waste his whole
heart in one kiss Upon her perfect lips?' Let them plead for me the pardon I
know no better way to sue for—or explain!
" The girl was silent.
That little flutter in her heart was pleading for
him, but her head was still rebellious, and she knew not which would triumph.
She put one white finger on her lip, and wondered what to say to him. She would
not look into his eyes—they bothered her quite beyond all reason—so she looked
at the deck instead, as though hoping to find some rule of conduct there.
"I am
sorry, Opal," went on the pleading tones, "that is, sorry that it
offended you.
I can't be
sorry that I did it—yet!" After a moment of serious reflection, she looked
up at him sternly. "It was a very rude thing to do, Paul! No one
ever—"
"Don't you suppose I know that, Opal? Did you
think that I thought—" "How was I to know what you thought, Paul? You
didn't know me!"
"Oh, but I do. Better than you know
yourself!" She looked up at him quickly, a startled expression in her
soft, lustrous eyes. "I—almost—believe you do—Paul."
"Opal!" He paused. She was tempting
him again. Didn't she know it? "Opal, can't—won't you believe in me? Don't
you feel that you know me?" "I'm not sure that I do—even
yet—after—that! Oh, Paul, are you sure that you know yourself?" "No,
not sure, but I'm beginning to!" She made no reply. After a moment, he
said softly, "You haven't said that you forgive me, yet, Opal! I know
there is no plausible excuse for me, but—listen! I couldn't help it—I truly
couldn't! You simply must forgive me!" "Couldn't help it?"—Oh,
the scorn of her reply. "If there had been any man in you at all, you
could have helped it!" "No, Opal, you don't understand! It is because
I am a man that I couldn't help it. It doesn't strike you that way now, I know,
but—some day you will see it!" And suddenly she did see it. And she reached
out her hand to him, and whispered, "Then let's forget all about it. I am
willing to—if you will!" Forget?
He would not promise that. He did not wish to
forget! And she looked so pretty and provoking as she said it, that he wanted
to—! But he only took her hand, and looked his gratitude into her eyes. The
Count de Roannes came unexpectedly and unobserved upon the climax of the little
scene, and read into it more significance than it really had. It was not
strange, perhaps, that to him this meeting should savour of clandestine
relations and that he should impute to it false motives and impulses.
The Count
prided himself upon his tact, and was therefore very careful to use the most
idiomatic English in his conversation. But at this sudden discovery—for he had
not imagined that the acquaintance had gone beyond his own discernment—he felt
the English language quite inadequate to the occasion, and muttered something
under his breath that sounded remarkably like "Tison d'enfer!" as he
turned on his heel and made for his stateroom. And the Boy, unconscious and
indifferent to all this by-play, had only time to press to his lips the little
hand she had surrendered to him before the crowd was upon them. But the waves
were singing a Te Deum in his ears, and the skies were bluer in the moonlight
than ever sea-skies were before. Paul felt, with a thrill of joy, that he was
looking far off into the vaster spaces of life, with their broader, grander
possibilities. He felt that he was wiser, nobler, stronger—nearer his ideal of
what a brave man should be.
When two are young, and at sea, and in love, and the
world is beautiful and bright, it is joyous and wonderful to drift
thoughtlessly with the tide, and rise and fall with the waves. Thus Paul
Zalenska and Opal Ledoux spent that most delightful of voyages on the
Lusitania. They were not often alone. They did not need to be. Their intimacy
had at one bound reached that point when every word and movement teemed with
tender significance and suggestion.
Their first
note had reached such a high measure that all the succeeding days followed at
concert pitch. It was a voyage of discovery. Each day brought forth revelations
of some new trait of character—each unfolding that particular something which
the other had always admired. And so their intimacy grew. Paul Verdayne saw and
smiled. He was glad to see the Boy enjoying himself. He knew his chances for
that sort of thing were all too pathetically few.
Mr. Ledoux
looked on, troubled and perplexed, but he saw no chance, and indeed no real
reason, for interfering. The Count de Roannes was irritated, at times even
provoked, but he kept his thoughts to himself, hiding his annoyance, and his
secret explosions of "Au diable!" beneath his usual urbanity. There
was nothing on the surface to indicate more than the customary familiarity of
young people thrown together for a time, and yet no one could fail to realize
the undercurrent of emotion below the gaiety of the daily ripple of amusement
and pleasurable excitement and converse.
They read
together, they exchanged experiences of travel, they discussed literature,
music, art and the stage, with the enthusiastic partisanship of zealous youth.
They talked of life, with its shade and shadow, its heights and depths of
meaning, and altogether became very well acquainted. Each day anew, they
discovered an unusual congeniality in thoughts and opinions. They shared in a
large measure the same exalted outlook upon life—the same lofty ambitions and
dreams.
And the more
Paul learned of the character of this strange girl, the more he felt that she
was the one woman in the world for him. To be sure, he had known that,
subconsciously, the first time he had heard her voice. Now he knew it by force
of reason as well, and he cursed the fate that denied him the right to declare
himself her lover and claim her before the world. One thing that impressed Paul
about the girl was the generous charity with which she viewed the frailties of
human nature, her sincere pity for all forms of human weakness and defeat, her
utter freedom from petty malice or spite. Rail at life and its hypocrisies, as
she often did, she yet felt the tragedy in its pitiful short-comings, and
looked with the eye of real compassion upon its sins and its sinners, condoning
as far as possible the fault she must have in her very heart abhorred.
"We all make mistakes," she would say,
when someone retailed a bit of scandal.
"No
human being is perfect, nor within a thousand miles of perfection. What right
then have we to condemn any fellow-creature for his sins, when we break just as
important laws in some other direction? It's common hypocrisy to say, 'We never
could have done this terrible thing!' and draw our mantle of self-righteousness
closely about us lest it become contaminated. Perhaps we couldn't! Why? Because
our temptations do not happen to lie in that particular direction, that's all!
But we are all law-breakers; not one keeps the Ten Commandments to the letter—not
one! Attack us on our own weak point and see how quickly we run up the flag of
surrender—and perhaps the poor sinner we denounce for his guilt would scorn
just as bitterly to give in to the weakness that gets the best of us.
Sin is sin, and one defect is as hideous as another.
He who breaks one part of the code of morality and righteousness is as
guilty—just exactly as guilty—as he who breaks another. Isn't the first
commandment as binding as the other nine? And how many of us do not break that
every day we live?" And there was the whole creed of Opal Ledoux. But as
intimate as she and the Boy had become, they yet knew comparatively little of
each other's lives.
Opal guessed that the Boy was of rank, and bound to
some definite course of action for political reasons. This much she had gained
from odds and ends of conversation. But beyond that, she had no idea who he
was, nor whence he came. She would not have been a woman had she not been
curious—and as I have said before, Opal Ledoux was, every inch of her five
feet, a woman—but she never allowed herself to wax inquisitive. As for the Boy,
he knew there was some evil hovering with threatening wings over the sunshine
of the girl's young life— some shadow she tried to forget, but could not put
aside—and he grew to associate this shadow with the continued presence of the
French Count, and his intimate air of authority.
Paul knew not
why he should thus connect these two, but nevertheless the impression grew that
in some way de Roannes exercised a sinister influence over the life of the girl
he loved. He hated the Count. He resented every look that those dissolute eyes
flashed at the girl, and he noticed many. He saw Opal wince sometimes, and then
turn pale. Yet she did not resent the offense. But Paul did. "Such a look
from a man like that is the grossest insult to any woman," he thought,
writhing in secret rage. "How can she permit it? If she were my—my sister,
I'd shoot him if he once dared to turn his damned eyes in her direction!"
And thus matters stood throughout the brief voyage. Paul and Opal, though
conscious of the double barrier between them, tried to forget its existence for
the moment, and, at intervals, succeeded admirably. For were they not in the
spring-time of youth, and in love? And Paul Zalenska talked to this girl as he
had never talked to anyone before—not even Paul Verdayne! She brought out the
latent best in him. She developed in him a quickness of perception, a depth of
thought and emotion, a facility of speech which he had never known.
She stimulated every faculty, and gave him new
incentive—a new and firmer resolve to aspire and fight for all that he held
dear. "I always feel," he said to Opal, once, "as though my soul
stood always at attention, awaiting the inevitable command of Fate! All Nature
seems to tell me at times that there is a purpose in my living, a work for me
to do, and I feel so thoroughly alive—so ready to listen to the call of
duty—and to obey!"
"A
dreamer!" she laughed, "as wild a dreamer as I!"
"Why
not?" he returned. "
All great deeds are born of dreams! It was a dreamer
who found this America you are so loyal to! And who knows but that I too may
find my world?" "And a fatalist, too!" "Why, of course!
Everyone is, to a greater or a less extent, though most dare not admit it!"
"But yesterday you said—what did you say, Paul, about the power of the
human will over environment and fate?" "I don't remember. That was
yesterday. I'm not the same to-day, at all. And to-morrow I may be quite
different." "Behold the consistency of man. But Fate, Paul—what makes
Fate? I have always been taught to believe that the world is what we make
it!" "And it is true, too, that in a way we may make the world what
we will, each creating it anew for himself, after his own pattern—but after
all, Opal, that is Fate. For what we are, we put into these worlds of ours, and
what we are is what our ancestors have made us—and that is what I understand by
destiny."
"Ah,
Paul, you have so many noble theories of life." His boyish face grew
troubled and perplexed.
"I
thought I had, Opal—till I knew you! Now I do not know! Fate seems to have
taken a hand in the game and my theories are cast aside like worthless cards. I
begin to see more clearly that we cannot always choose our paths."
"Can one
ever, Paul?" "Perhaps not! Once I believed implicitly in the
omnipotence of the human will to make life just what one wished. Now"— and
he searched her eyes—"I know better."
"Unlucky Opal, to cross your path!" she
sighed. "Are you superstitious, Paul? Do you know that opals bring bad
luck to those who come beneath the spell of their influence?"
"I'll
risk the bad luck, Opal!" And she smiled.
And he thought as he looked at her, how well she
understood him! What an inspiration would her love have brought to such a life
as he meant his to be! What a RĂ©camier or du Barry she would have made, with
her piquante, captivating face, her dark, lustrous, compelling eyes, her
significant gestures, which despite many wayward words and phrases, expressed
only lofty and majestic thoughts! Her whole regal little body, with its
irresistible power and charm, was so far beyond most women! She was life and
truth and ambition incarnate! She was the spirit of dreams and the breath of
idealism and the very soul of love and longing. Would she feel insulted, he
wondered, had she known he had dared to compare her, even in his own thoughts,
with a king's mistress?
He meant no
insult—far from it! But would she have understood it had she known?
Paul fancied
that she would. "They may not have been moral, those women," he
thought, "that is, what the world calls 'moral' in the present day, but
they possessed power, marvellous power, over men and kingdoms. Opal Ledoux was
created to exert power—her very breath is full of force and vitality!" "Yes,"
he repeated aloud after due deliberation, "I'll risk the bad luck if
you'll be good tome!" "Am I not?" "Not always."
"Well, I will be to-day. See! I have a new book—a sad little love-tale,
they say—just the thing for two to read at sea," and with a heightened
color she began to read. She had pulled her deck-chair forward, until she sat
in a flood of sunshine, and the bright rays, falling on her mass of rich brown
hair, heightened all the little glints of red-gold till they looked like living
bits of flame. Oh the vitality of that hair! the intense glow of those eyes in
whose depths the flame-like glitter was reflected as the voice, too, caught
fire from the fervid lines! Soon the passion and charm of the poem cast its
spell over them both as they followed the fate of the unhappy lovers through
the heartache of their evanescent dream. Their eyes met with a quick thrill of
understanding.
"It
is—Fate, again," Paul whispered. "Read on, Opal!" She read and
again they looked, and again they understood. "I cannot read any more of
it," she faltered, a real fear in her voice. "Let us put it
away." "No, no!" he pleaded. "It's true—too true. Read on,
please, dear!" "I cannot, Paul. It is too sad!" "Then let
me read it, Opal, and you can listen!" And he took the book gently from
her hand, and read until the sun was smiling its farewell to the laughing
waters. That evening a strong wind was playing havoc with the waves, and the
fury of the maddened spray was beating a fierce accompaniment to their hearts.
"How I love the wind," said Opal.
"More
than all else in Nature I love it, I think, whatever its mood may be. I never
knew why—probably because I, too, am capricious and full of changing moods. If
it is tender and caressing, I respond to its appeal; if it is boisterous and
wild, I grow reckless and rash in sympathy; and when it is fierce and
passionate, I feel my blood rush within me. I am certainly a child of the
wind!"
"Let us hope you will never experience a
cyclone," said the Count, drily. "It might be disastrous!"
"True,
it might," said Opal, and she did not smile. "I echo your kind hope,
Count de Roannes." And the Boy looked, and listened, and loved! CHAPTER X
As they left the dinner-table, Opal passed the Boy on her way to her stateroom,
and laying her hand upon his arm, looked up into his face appealingly. He
wondered how any man could resist her. "Let's put the book away, Paul, and
never look at it again!" "Will you be good to me if I do?" he
demanded. She considered a moment. "How?" she asked, finally.
"Come out for just a few moments under the stars, and say
good-night." "The idea! I can say good-night here and now!" She
hesitated. "Please, Opal!
I seldom see
you alone—really alone—and this is our last night, you know. To-morrow we shall
part— perhaps forever—who knows? Can you be so cruel as to refuse this one
request. Please come!" His eyes were wooing, her heart fluttering in
response. "Well—perhaps!" she said. "Perhaps?" he echoed,
with a smile, then added, teasingly, "Are you afraid?" "Afraid?—I
dare anything—to-night!" "Then come!" "I will—if I feel
like this when the time comes. But," and she gave him a tantalizing glance
from under her long lashes, "don't expect me!" Paul tried to look
disappointed, but he felt sure that she would come. And she did! But not till
he had given up all hope, and was pacing the deck in an agony of impatience. He
had felt so certain that he knew his beloved! She came, swiftly, silently,
almost before he was aware. "Well, ... I'm here," she said. "I
see you are, Opal and—thank you.
" He extended his hand, but she clasped hers
behind her back and looked at him defiantly. Truly she was in a most perverse
mood! "Aren't we haughty!" he laughed. "No, I'm not; I
am—angry!" "With me?" "No!—not you." "Whom, then?"
"With—myself!" And she stamped her tiny foot imperiously. Paul was
delighted. "Poor child," he said. "What have you done that you
are so sorry?" "I'm not sorry! That's why I'm angry! If I were only a
bit sorry, I'd have some self-respect!" Paul looked at her deliberately,
taking in every little detail of her appearance, his eyes full of admiration.
Then he added, with an air of finality, "But I respect you!" She
softened, and laid her hand on his arm. Paul instantly took possession of it.
"Do you really?" she asked, searching his face, almost wistfully.
"A girl who will do ...what I am doing to-night!" "But what are
you doing, Opal?"
he asked in
the most innocent surprise. "Merely keeping a wakeful man company beneath
the stars!"
"Is that ...all?" "All ...now!"
They stood silently for a minute, hand still in hand, looking far out over the
moonlit waters, each conscious of the trend of the other's thoughts—the beating
of the other's heart. The deck was deserted by all save their two selves—they
two alone in the big starlit universe. At last she spoke.
"This is interesting, isn't it?" "Of
course!—holding your hand!" She snatched it from him. "I forgot you
had it," she said. "Forget again!" "No, I won't!... Is it
always interesting?... holding a girl's hand?" "It depends upon the
girl, I suppose! I was enjoying it immensely just then." He took her hand
again. And again that perilously sweet silence fell between them. At last,
"Promise me, Paul!" she said. "I will—what is it?"
"Promise me to forget anything I may say or do
to-night ... not to think hard of me, however rashly I may act! I'm not
accountable, really! I'm liable to say ...anything! I feel it in my
blood!" "I understand, Opal! See! the winds are boisterous and unruly
enough. You may be as rash and reckless as you will!" Suddenly the wind
blew her against his breast. The perfume of her hair, and all the delicious
nearness of her, intoxicated him. He laughed a soft, caressing little
lover-laugh, and raising her face to his, kissed her lips easily, naturally, as
though he had the right. She struggled, helplessly, as he held her closely to
him, and would not let her go. "You are a—" She bit her lip, and
choked back the offensive word. "A—what? Say it, Opal!"
"A—a—brute! There! let me go!" But
he only held her closer and laughed again softly, till she whispered, "I
didn't—quite—mean that, you know!" "Of course you didn't!" She
drew away from him and pointed her finger at him accusingly, her eyes full of
reproof. "But—you said you wouldn't! You promised!" "Wouldn't
what?" "Wouldn't do—what you did—again!" "Did I?"
insinuatingly. "How dare you ask that? You——" "'Brute' again?
Quite like old married folk!" "Old married folk? They never
kiss!" "Don't they?" "Not each other!... other people's
husbands or wives!" "Is that it?" "Surely—— 'Think you, if
Laura had been Petrarch's wife, He would have written sonnets all his life?' O
no! not he!" "I'm learning many new things, Opal! Let's play we're
married, then—to someone else!" "But—haven't you any conscience at
all?" "Conscience?—what a question! Of course I have!" "You
certainly aren't using it tonight!" "I'm too busy! Kiss me!"
"The very idea!" "Please!"
"Certainly not!" "Then let me kiss
you!" "No!!!" "Why not?—Don't you like to be loved?"
And his arms closed around her, and his lips found hers again, and held them.
At last, "Silly Boy!" "Why?" "Oh! to make such a
terrible fuss about something he doesn't really want, and will be sorry he has
after he gets it!" And Paul asked her wickedly, what foolish boy she was
talking about now? He knew what he really wanted—always— and was not sorry when
he had it. Not he! He was sorry only for the good things he had let slip, never
for those he had taken! "But—do let me go, Paul! I don't belong to
you!" "Yes you do—for a little while!" He held her close. Belong
to him! How she thrilled at the thought! Was this what it meant to be—loved?
And did she belong to him—if only, as he said, for a little while? She
certainly didn't belong to herself! Whatever this madness that had suddenly
taken possession of her, it was stronger than herself. She couldn't control
it—she didn't even want to! At all events, she was living tonight! Her blood
was rushing madly through her body. She was deliciously, thoroughly alive!
"Paul!—are you listening?" "Yes, dear!" the answer strangely
muffled.
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